the perfect monday..

finally managed to pull my socks up to study after a few days of study hiatus..
it went so well that i didnt realized i spent the whole night doing so..
6am. monday is what it said.. the same time i realized i have my peads neuro that same morning..
juggling between cursing and trying to sleep i managed to dozed off (surprisingly) listening to cheryl cole's fight for this love.. before i went under.. i was so sure that i would miss my final day of peads neuro with dr. mah.. but like the old saying.. a man gotta do what a man gotta.. and that is sleep..

woke up later at 7 and i was like cursing under my breath..
first thing i did was checking the weather.. and it said -35 degrees celcius..
i was so sure this is going to be another one of those crappy mondays..

then things started to roll into the best monday ever.. like EVER..

i realised that it was 7am not pm.. but i felt so refreshed? maybe by substituting the crappy-ness out of my brain with pure knowledge, i can actually function beyond super human power!! i should do more THINKING from now on!!! lol

with my new super powers i danced to the bus stop.. all bundle up.. it is still -35 mind you..
within seconds, the bus came.. and when i was supposed to change bus to the children's hospital, the other bus was also ready to leave.. perfect timing!!! gosh.. my lucky day indeed

by 9.. i was already coat-tailing dr. mah to her clinics.. and then the glory of perfect monday keep rolling down the isle..
another residence was also tagging her, a geneticist.. and we got ot see yet another rare peads case.. a case of bilateral polymicrogyria!! even the geneticist said it's rare.. lovely parents.. lovely kid.. full of love.. full of joy..
my 'rare condition collections' is growing by the minutes.. then as i was about to leave the hospital for physical exam session, we met yet another family.. lovely family with a beautiful toddler.. she is sooo cute that i decided to get myself, one of those right there and then.. by those i meant lil' aliens that bears my genetic framework and would could me dad!!! lol.. and i don't DO wishful thinking.. another rare occasion i might say.. lol.. these.. boys and girls are the side effects of studying wayyy too much on lil' aliens.. i just couldn't stop smiling from then onwards.. sighhhhhh (this one is a good sigh lol)..

got a wonderful feedback from dr. mah too.. yay!!!!

so.. with springs in my steps i walked yet again into the cold weather but it's just not any cold weather.. it's now -16!!!! with sun shining bright and mighty.. felt like stripping down to my boxers and skipping in circle.. and that just stretched my 'smile' receptors even more.. i was literally beaming with joy!!! it's just one of those wonderful-disney-fairy-tale-esque feeling..

and just as i reached the bus stop.. the shining windshield of the bus greet me with the masculine rattle of the engine.. perfect timing.. perfect monday..

and physical exam was just perfect.. the doctor brought perfectly baked cookies and the session just breeze by.. and i still can't stop smiling.. everyone in the room was like asking me am i high on something.. perfect.. just perfect...

review sessions perfect.. dinnner perfect.. perfect day.. perfect!!! owh did i mentioned the sun? OMG it's the most perfect sun today..

just a perfect monday... oh i love mondays now!!!!!!

now, back to studying.. fingers crossed for a perfect tuesday?

conclusion: either i should study more.. or i should start the habit of cursing before sleeping and as i wake up.. lol

post #119: jump

was blog hopping when i came across a grafiti blog.
the blog posed a question that i find very very very intriguing,

"sometimes, i wonder what would happen if everyone in this world jumped at the same time"

very random, yes.
kinda remind me of the movie 300
when the persian army marched up to meet the fury of the spartan

very THE man;p

bradycardia?

why was the baker admitted to the hospital?

(drumrolls)
he got bread-ycardia

yes.. i'm super bored..
shared this with hui lin.. then she said: shitla ur bwain.. what does it contain..

then i dawned on me.. what is actually inside my brain.. to think of such nonsense(S).. seems a whole load of mess.. i bet if scientists were to 'excavate' my brain they will realize that it's similar to most 'ang-mo's' garages.. full with junks.. unused, crappy stuffs they tried to hide from the eyes which are not theirs.
that is, what i believe the condition of my brain as of right now.. full of crappy load of shit!

call this a mid-life crisis if u want, but in a few months time i'm going to be a 25 year-old geezer with nothing but crap to talk about.. i want to blame my IMU lecturer for engraving the fact that 25 is THE AGE where you are held responsible for the desicions that you make/made.. and hui lin for make me 'work' my brain a bit.. damn you all.. lol

but then again.. if i were to organize a 'spring-cleaning' of my brain.. there won't be... ME no more..
desicion, desicion, desicions.... gosh..

arghhh.. i'll decide when i turn 25.. how's that... ahaks

on a lighter note..

need to stop laughing.. or at least, change the way i laugh
or else i'm gonna drop dead from laughing one of these days.. not a bad way to go on second tot.. lol
it's just that there's too much valsalva pressure.. either mallory-weiss tear or ruptured bowels..

when boredom strikes

been snowing everyday since the start of this week

all i can do is studying.. but i can't
my heart is just not in it right now

so instead of moping around, complaining
decided to be productive, appreciative

1st step.. sleep
2nd step.. i'll tell u when i wake up

lol

while i whine;(

Today, upon a bus,
I saw a girl with golden hair.
And wished I was as fair.
When suddenly she rose to leave,
I saw her hobble down the aisle.
She had one leg and wore a crutch.
But as she passed, she smiled.
Oh God, forgive me when I whine.
I have two legs the world is mine.

With feet to take me where I `d go.
With eyes to see the sunset's glow.
With ears to hear what I'd know.
Oh God, forgive me when I whine.
I have blessed indeed, the world is mine.

I stopped to buy some candy.
The lad who sold it had such charm.
I talked with him, he seemed so glad.
If I were late, it `d do no harm.
And as I left, he said to me,
"I thank you, you've been so kind.
You see," he said, "I `m blind"
Oh God, forgive me when I whine.
I have two eyes the world is mine.

With feet to take me where I `d go.
With eyes to see the sunset's glow.
With ears to hear what I'd know.
Oh God, forgive me when I whine.
I have blessed indeed, the world is mine.


I saw a child with eyes of blue.
He stood and watched the others play.
He did not know what to do.
I stopped a moment and then I said,
"Why don't you join the others, dear?"
He looked ahead without a word.
And then I knew. He couldn't hear.
Oh God, forgive me when I whine.
I have two ears the world is mine.

With feet to take me where I `d go.
With eyes to see the sunset's glow.
With ears to hear what I'd know.
Oh God, forgive me when I whine.
I have blessed indeed, the world is mine

taken from azroque's facebook post

#114 - a GREAT saturday

one perfect day
i loved it when that happen

started off with a roti canai by abang zack
with with beef curry
while watching united
painfully dismantle blackburn
2-0 with a GREAT goal from berba
cause of concerns, how united seems to lost the creative edge over teams
sigh
but a GREAT win indeed

walked to main campus in shorts
thank god for chinook
played squash with aqsa, bella and janet
2 full hours.. yeah

got back took a GREAT reviving nap
1 hour REM bliss

then being mus-so-keen
decided to pay a visit to RGH
unit 62 -Obstetrics

suit up, off to an hour bus ride
had a GREAT conversation with the driver
from scotland
awesome guy with awesome stories
yeah, he had on of those not -s0-many-people-day
all out trick-or-treating and partying the night off

went i reached RGH, was greated by a GREAT doctor in DR.A
with great staffs
i felt like i was in a team or something
1 specialist, 1 resident, 1 clinical clerk, 1 noob
hahaahha
tag the resident who was sooo nice
and greeted by all leng lui nurses.. life never been this GREAT
lol

it's a pretty slow day that saturday
driven by the fact that mothers would hold one day back to take their children out for halloween
or teens, preferring to poison their fetus with booze
lol

but then, one hour in (9pm) things got a bit interesting
triage after triage
cervical dilatations after spottings
i've seen everything from obs point of view

then in came a complicated consult
a new expecting mother
twins - (now only i know that twins are a completely different ball game in term of delivery and all)
the mother also have a horse shoe kidney
how rare is that.. i'm like the magnet to rarity..lol
she was very much in pain, asking for epidural
but not before 1 resident, 1 nurde and one specialist perform vaginal examinations
just to be sure that she is not in labour
for what i can tell, it's very very very hard to measure the cervix
both, from the patient's perspective and the attending
too bad i can't witness the delivery process
cervix still closed
i feel every her every contraction man.. the pain!!!! i cringe every single time man..
she even swore at her mum.. lol funny leh...
one word of advice: dun mess with pregnant moms, especially when they are in labour!!!!

btw if u wan to have a painless delivery, one thing u can do is have a pyelonephritis
lool
the baby will just slide out
preterm and risk of fetal infection but yeah.. win some lose some
hahhaah
i got this from a patient who really wanted to have a full term baby
all the best to her
from then onwards, it's all about checking new mothers and their baby
soooooo niceeeeeeeeeeee
GREAT emotion from just watching them.. very warm..

as the clock strike 12am
was called in to 'assist' in a c-sec
assist = hold some stuffs, shift the patient and stay out of the way!!!
felt like a total noob, but it's ok
the c-sec was soooo fast (12mins)
and we had a very fiesty baby girl
sooooo nice the whole process
maybe not as dramatic as a vaginal delivery but still....

then the punch line
the Dr. A asked the parent:
"so, do you wan a halloween baby or a memorial day baby?"
it was 12am and it happens to be day light saving day..
1st nov 12am, clocks turn back to 31st oct 11am
kinda interesting how they joked about it..

a new life brought to this world
with love aloft

after 4 hours + 1 extra hours to make it really 12am
decided to call the day off
a few chitty-chatters with the doctors and staffs
i'm off unit 62
4 hours of GREAT learning FUN FUN FUN

and another GREAT thing happenned after that
there was not supposed to be any buses at that time
but somebody decided to pour gasoline on the bus, so the driver have to change bus
end result - i dun have to take a cab home!!!
yay!!!
with another GREAT scottish driver.. hahaha

the cap everything off
a GREAT night sleep (almost forgot how it felt;p)

#113 - what if's

yet another random post
after yet another sleppless night..
heck.. maybe i should seek help.. soon!!!!

anyway..
was browsing thru pics, videos and other stuffs
bit's and parcels of what peeps pronounce as memories
the past, flashbacks

then this miniscule brain of mine suddenly functions (for once)
why would peeps want to look back into time, their past, history
it is indeed no longer their story.. it's his' story
belonging to their old self
and u know it as much as i do
we no longer are the our old self
we evolved, we changed, we grew

i might be biased and dun get me wrong
i really like my past.. my footprints
i do believe i have a great background, prelude to what i am now
just that nagging WHAT IF'S questions
really really hate it
it's as if i'm not content with what i have now
questioning every move i used to take
every path throdden by these legs
come on.. move on already
next page.. next chapter

but whenever i looked back
there it is
the monster of WHAT IF'S
lurking down the alley
blocking the path to 'the tomorrow'
leading u to an endless roundabouts and u-turns

denise tot me something once
there's no more u-turns
there shouldn't be
even if u made a mistake, just take a tiny step back
reflect then move on!!!
(couldn't believe i'm taking que's from a bimbo potatohead)

now i really cannot sleep..

have to admit, i loved the 'WHAT IF'S' box
with it u can be anything u want, with just the 'right' choice
u can be a superstar! a great lover! an awesome architect!
a pianist! anyone! just anyting u would ever imagine
but this BOX shall remained closed
cause nothing good can ever come out off it
the pandora box!!

screw me for thinking of such nonsense
mind you, i never reviewed my previous post
write write write -- publish
which explains all the rubbish i've posted before

now that i mentioned it, there's nothing 'wise' about me projecting out of this chunk of hot stuff
crap crap crap
what if i'm a lil' wiser?
what if i can be a lil' smarter?
what if i'm a lil' less socially retarded?

~

ask me again in 10 years time
i dun think i wan/can answer that now

memories are there to remind u of ur old self
not to predict what u could be in the future
it is there to let u know that u used to be better/worse
so u can do someting to change it
memoirs are there to make u aware that u were once a somebody
apart of this somebody u call self
(what philisophical crap is that!!!)

all i know.. i dun like the what if's question

i'm the servant of the Almighty
serving HIS cause
looking back on mistakes
an ardent student of non-repetiting cycle

~but so far i failed?

i am indeed... a lengzhai ;p